I was asked from a blogging friend of mine, Emma , to tell the full story of my weight loss and plastic surgery. I am thinking she wants to know how it came about, how I did it and what it was really like ! She asked for it now she gets to find out ( apologise if you find this terribly boring and long winded but its my blog so suck it up people ha ! )
I made the decision about 2 years ago that enough was enough and I need to get my health and life back to a normal balance. There was no serious trigger or near death health scare that did it. It was simply that I was feeling older then a 26 year old women. I had sore joints and my sleep was shockingly bad. I will say it effected my self esteem and my self image as well. Also what got me on the road was my mum. She is coming on 60 and about 11 years ago she went on a health kick and now looks like a 50 year old and has done a brilliant job. I was of the thought that if mum could do this at her age then I could shift my incredibly fat ass into any gear but neutral!
This is a warts and all post and a bare the sole post. So in the interest of that statement here is what my weight was when I started this : ……..340 lb…god that is painful to write and scary to look at …which is a good thing as it will never happen again in my life time.
So yeah I went to my Doctor and said look lets get this ball rolling “HELP ME !!! NOW!!” and he did. He made me do a food journal for a week. It was scary as shit. I did not necessarily eat terrible things or even bad things. I just ate the wrong way and did not physical activities. I also went for 8 days yes 8 entire days without drinking water people. I lived of diet coke coffee and booze lol !!
I was put on to a nutritionist and the doctor started me on a pill call orlistat or xenical. It effectively did not allow my body to breakdown fat , literally in one end out the other with terrible consequences and damn it worked! I was on them for 10 months. The nutritionist set me a menu and it was bring I am not going to lie but it was what I needed to start out with. I went to the gym signed up that day and got a trainer.
My first gym visit was terrifying and nerve racking. I felt like a imposter or just another fat girl that’s going to “try this exercise shit out and give up in a week” I felt out of place and like i did not belong there. I lasted 20 minutes and thought i was going to die from lack of breath and sheer pain. But I kept going I kept being stubborn about it and just did it. Just so you know I now go to the gym for between 1 – 2 hours I run and row 6 miles in total a day and lift weights every day. I have to change my program a lot as i am that fit now it is not as challenging. This proves if you stick to it, it will get better.
In those 10 months I lost a total of 85 pounds. The first 3 months were the most drastic at 35 pound weight lose. the remaining 8 months has been slower and less lose a total of 30 pounds. But it has also been 8 months of building muscle up and toning which accounts for the lack of weight drop.
What this did leave me with though was the dreaded “Apron of skin ” I have lost so much weight that my skin will not “bounce back flat” lol it just stayed where it was. This was a MAJOR ego crushing issue for me. I had spent all this time losing weight and yet in my eyes ( not in others as i constantly get comments about my waist line being smaller and looking great) I was still at square one! So my mother kindly offered to pay for plastic surgery to have a Abdominoplasty otherwise known as a “tummy tuck” because she knew what it was doing to my self esteem. I will be forever grateful to my mother for doing this for me.
So I finally got into the surgeon and as said before he examined me listened to my story and proceed to tell me this: I am a ideal candidate for this surgery, I have done nothing wrong in my weight lose and I should be proud of what I have achieved. He told me that for my height and build I am NOT over weight now. He said that once I have the surgery I will go down to a size 12/14 or smaller within a year. The actually procedure will NOT make me lose more weight. The only weight I will lose is the skin which is minuscule in comparison at 2 – 5 kg. I will however lose more weight after the surgery. My current weight is sitting at 233 lb. Once this is done and by this time next year I will be at my ideal weight of 170 -180 lb. I say I will because I know I will I am going to be there and that is the end of that story !
So there you go there is my weight lose story. This was one of the hardest most testing things I have done. I have done a lot in my life. I have travelled the world I have had surgeries on my ankle I have been through self esteem knocking events. I have out lived my father and I can safely say this part of my life was damn hard. But it was completely worth every ache every knock every single spilt tear. I say this to others that read this that have never had weight issues: NEVER JUDGE SOMEONE WHO MAKES THE EFFORT TO BETTER THEIR LIFE. If you do that then very bluntly you are a piece of shit simply put. No one in this world has the right to make someone feel lesser then they are as a person and a human being because of their physical appearance. It is a hard thing to deal with. You go through a gammit of emotions particularly as a women. You feel unwanted and un loved. You look at couples and are of the belief that you will never be part of a couple, that no man would want you. You walk into stores and feel as though the entire world is mocking you with there smaller sized very cool cloths. You go to a gym and feel so awkward in your own skin as you believe that everyone is staring at the fat sweating person in “their” gym.
To the people who are and were like me. You can do this trust me I know. I am the worst procrastinator on this earth and I DID IT which means you can. There are NO quick fixes there are NO miracle diets. You eat healthy ( 3 meals a day ) you drink water and you WORK OUT and if you do this you will get there I can promise you that in any heartbeat
You can do this