I am a big reader and movie watcher. I read on average 1 – 2 books a week when I am on good form. I cannot sleep unless I have read something anything! Even if I may have had one to many drinks I still have to try and read at 3 in the morning. Of course I remember nothing of what I read in those situations and generally wake up with the book stuck to the side of a drool covered face …hmmm wonder why I am single ??? Any clues ?
It is the same with movies I can eat my way through multiple movies in one day. If the mood takes me I can easily watch 4 or 5 in a day …surgery is going to be fun as will be bed ridden so a lot of movies shall be watched I do believe.
Where I seem to have a problem is some of the genre of books I read and movies I watch. I LOVE chick Lit books the Sophie Kinsellas of the world. I adore chick flicks like Notting Hill and Catch and Release.
I ask if these styles give me unrealistic expectations? Do I read these books about love and boys and dating and then have a idea imprinted in my mind that this is what should happen to me. That I should have this perfectly formed beautiful relationship with some bronzed toned beautiful sensitive yet manly man? I am thinking that this is highly unlikely that this will not happen to me and I accept that. But when I read these books its almost as if I am living vicariously through the characters in the books! It is in fact almost as if I am pretending it is in fact me I am reading about and not the actualt character the author has put pen to paper about !
Movies are even worse because unlike the majority of books I read the movies will actually make me cry like the single somewhat sad spinster that I appear to fast becoming. I watch them and even in the god damn happy bits of the movies I feel pathetic. You would think that if I knew that these styles of movies would evoke a reaction such as this I would simply not rent or buy the movie and watch it …and yet I do. They are sort of a addiction something I cannot seem to get enough of and surely this cannot be normal people !?!?! please tell me I am the only one that does this !
So the question is if these books and these movies are almost detrimental to the mental health of all sad single women like me? Do they create these unattainable goals and ideas for us all? Do they lead you into a false sense of security? I am thinking that in fact they likely do. Does this mean I would stop reading and watching them …hell no they are like my drug people. If I am going to be single and well single then at least I can live through the fantasy of writing and watching other peoples fictional lives and maybe live with the fairytale that yes in fact these things do happen to normal people